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"I know we're just part time, that's cool. You know, do whatever, have your fun. But one of these nights you're gonna realize it; I'm the one for you. You'll see."

Always a favourite.

10:10

Kau nak tahu benda paling kejam kau boleh buat dekat orang?

Kau buat dia percaya yang kau sayang dia. Kau buat dia percaya yang kau takkan ada niat pun nak tinggalkan dia. Kau sugarcoat everything yang kau cakap. Kau bagi dia harapan tinggi menggunung.

Then kau blah. Tinggalkan dia terus terkapai-kapai.

Kau just tinggalkan orang yang betul-betul sayangkan kau. Orang yang betul percaya kau lebih dari orang lain boleh percayakan kau. She was the one who didn't give up on you because she knew that you could prove everyone including herself, wrong. Who always had faith in you.

But it's okay. She knows that there is more to life than just ungrateful you.

Saja je ni practice menulis emo for Antologi Gagalis.

Tamak af

Ada kawan baru whatsapp. Dia cakap dia sentap bila ex dia dah bertunang. Konon nak release stress sampai semalam pergi clubbing. Benda yang dia dah lama tinggal. Just to get rid the thought of losing her.

Tu buat I fikir. Selalu orang doa pada Tuhan pasal jodoh ni. "Kalau dia untukku, dekatkanlah dia. Kalau bukan, jauhkanlah dia."

What if I cakap I dah start jadi tamak? I tak ada langsung mention dalam doa, "kalau bukan dia jodoh aku, jauhkanlah dia." Sebab, kalau jawapannya bukan, I kena face the same thing all over again, with different  person. Berapa kali I nak kena cakap, it's very tiring process.

Mula-mula I thought cukup jela dengan perasaan suka tu. But yes, I got greedy. Now I want you to love me. All of me.

Now or Never

I'm not a big believer in second chances.

Maybe tak akan ada langsung next time.

Mungkin time out pun tak ada juga.

Probably sometimes, it is just now or never.

Stalker

14 July 2015.

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